Our Lord is amazing. It seems to me that he knows how to speak and what to say to us just when we think everything is going to fall apart. He spoke to me on Facebook, of all places, in a friend's status. Emily Pilotte wrote, "I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?--Jeremiah 32:27 #ourGodisgreater". These past three weeks have been very taxing. It just seemed like being an RA was going to be more than I had originally bargained for, and I'm the type of person who likes to know exactly how something is going to be before I sign on the dotted line. So, needless to say, I was kinda discouraged. But, in the moment that I saw that post I knew that he had greater plans for me in this position than I had thought to begin with. I knew I was supposed to do this to push me and to get me out of my comfort zone. I heard a man say during training that if you're comfortable, then you're not growing. This is a growing opportunity for me, and I'm learning more and more everyday that I can't do it. There's no possible way. But, with God all things are possible. I know that he can do through me more than I could ever imagine doing on my own.
My prayer is that he would use me to reach my residents, fellow RA's, and people I meet this year. That small reassurance has given me the confidence to keep pushing through, even when it feels like I'm all alone.
He's also teaching me more about my sinful ways. I'm a selfish person- we all are, really. He recently showed me in Philippians 2 that in order for me to be an affective RA and girlfriend I need to, in humility, value others above myself. I can't be focused on my wants because I have to focus on my residents' needs and wants.
Also, Josh's. He's been super busy with band camp and I've been alone alot. It's put me in a sour mood for the majority of the past two weeks. I've been missing my family too, so that helps none. But, I think God is preparing us for our future together, and how it's going to be with us both having hectic schedules and other things going on. I know he will see us through, though. He always has. Always will. And that's a promise.
